This is so good Kyra. I have parted with quite a few friends as the more I have awakened, the more I have changed, so find myself naturally drawn to different people these days, I can still be quite cautious, for some of the same reasons you mention. I too have been drawn to older people like the old souls you talk about.
Yes, I nodded along with your post. Same dilemma all my life, I long for close friends but get overwhelmed by too much neediness from others and the feeling of being taken over. I do think we need more definitions of the word ‘friend’. I have lots of acquaintances that would say we are close friends but who never need or want to delve below the surface of anything. It always amazes me when people say I’m a good friend to them because from my side I feel we barely know each other. I then question ‘is it me who is the needy one?, do I want more out of a relationship that the average person’. People are a dilemma.
Omg. "overwhelmed by too much neediness from others and the feeling of being taken over." This is me exactly. It's such a delicate balancing act! Only wanting deep connections, yet fearing losing myself when there aren't healthy boundaries. I'm getting better as the years go on. Better at choosing the right people, and better at keeping myself from getting overwhelmed. Thank you for your words!
This is so good Kyra. I have parted with quite a few friends as the more I have awakened, the more I have changed, so find myself naturally drawn to different people these days, I can still be quite cautious, for some of the same reasons you mention. I too have been drawn to older people like the old souls you talk about.
Thank you so much for your kind words!! I'm so glad this resonated with you.
Yes, I nodded along with your post. Same dilemma all my life, I long for close friends but get overwhelmed by too much neediness from others and the feeling of being taken over. I do think we need more definitions of the word ‘friend’. I have lots of acquaintances that would say we are close friends but who never need or want to delve below the surface of anything. It always amazes me when people say I’m a good friend to them because from my side I feel we barely know each other. I then question ‘is it me who is the needy one?, do I want more out of a relationship that the average person’. People are a dilemma.
Omg. "overwhelmed by too much neediness from others and the feeling of being taken over." This is me exactly. It's such a delicate balancing act! Only wanting deep connections, yet fearing losing myself when there aren't healthy boundaries. I'm getting better as the years go on. Better at choosing the right people, and better at keeping myself from getting overwhelmed. Thank you for your words!